Book Development! Excitement.

So I'm in the middle of developing a book for my drawing class and I'm super excited about it. Ever since I was little I always wanted to make graphic novels or just some kind of book. I love books! They are a really nice escape from reality and really play with your imagination. 

Plus that old book smell is pretty nice right?

So yeah I'm developing a book that is just basically my comments on societies beauty standards. I know so many people (myself included) that have/had issues regarding their body. And why? Because they don't fit in within societies ideas of whats beautiful?

Fuck. That. Shit. 

Societies ideas of beautiful is so messed up. I hate it. 

So in my book I talk about this and the idea of body positivity. As someone who is finally becoming more confident in my body/looks, I want other people to be love themselves and accept their body for what it is. Because everyone is beautiful. I am in the book talking more about the female body, but I think the idea still applies itself to men to. I just feel like the female body is constantly under a microscope. 

So with that here's a couple of my favourite drawings from it so far!

-Cagsyy

Update.

Hey long time no post. 

Well, unfortunately I failed trying to keep updating this blog. I goal was to update once a month and I failed!

It's a sad life. 

Trust me, I've been meaning to update you forever with something. Didn't have to be anything amazing, but life just got the better of me. Life is constantly getting the better of me and I just find it's hard to keep up. It was just one thing after another, and it was just too much. With everything that happened, I grew pretty depressed. I've always struggled with some sort of depression/anxiety, but this was different. Usually when I'm depressed it's something that passes really quick and it's to a much smaller degree. But in the past couple of months I found that my depression was much worse, where I found myself crying pretty much everyday, I would wake up from sleeping having terrible panic attacks and I had days where I just wanted to die. 

It got pretty bad.

I didn't know what to do with myself. I almost hit my breaking point the one day, I remember calling my dad and just breaking down to him on the phone. I never till that point told anyone how depressed I was, but I'm glad I did. I was on the phone with my dad for two hours just talking to him about everything. My poor dad, he had to listen to me cry for two hours! If you ever see this dad, thank you, I'm sorry and I love you so much! He really helped me at my worst and started telling me about his struggles with depression, and he really helped me through it all. I've learned to really hate bothering people with my problems but in the end I'm glad I told someone. 

I'm still not over with my depression. But you never really get 100% over it right? You just learn to get it under control. I'm  just taking it day by day! I'm so thankful for everyone that I have in my life and everyone who really helped me in my time of need. 

I love you all.

Anyways...yeah. That's part of why I haven't updated. But I'm really going to try to put more of an effort to continue to update! We'll see how long that lasts haha. But I have a bunch of new things that will probably give me enough content for a long while so that's something?

So yeah, here's the end to that rant! Onward to better and more creative things. To the supermoon! Or something like that?

-Cagsyy

Love Them Ink Drawings.

What makes me happy? Life drawing and Ink.

Soo when we put these two loves together it makes for a super fun class. I really didn't want to go to class today because I have so much work to do and I feel so behind that I felt like I should take that time to catch up. But instead I decided to suck it up and go to class and it was worth it. 

I was so happy to have a class where we weren't working on are book project (will post about later), that just ugh. So yeah. Heres some of my favourites from todays life drawing class.

Those were 1-2 min poses I believe? I can't remember now but they are nice and loose and I love them. Then we went on to a couple 20-30 min poses.

Sigh. I'm really happy with the last one. The last one was honestly trying to cover up a drawing of the same pose that went wrong fast.

Hope you all like them. I'll be posting again real soon once I get my book project done for class.

Toodles!

-Cagsyy 

The King and the Lionheart-Concept.

So today I present to you a small project that I am slowly developing. It's my way of showing my love for the game Fire Emblem: Awakening, and it is my way of showing my love for Of Monsters and Men and their beautiful song "King and Lionheart". It's a little book I'm drawing using the words and the feelings I get from the song, as well as adapting the song and its meaning to my otp in the game (which is Chrom/Robin). 

So these are little thumbnails that I made in my sketchbook, and they are probably all like five minute (possibly longer) rough gestures of what I am planning for the pages to look like. I have most of the lyrics drawn up in quick little sketches but I'm contemplating still what I want the chorus pages to look like. I have an idea of what I might do but I'm not sure how I want to draw it out. Ugh.

The idea of this is that it is almost like an epilogue to the game and it will show critical events within the game that lead towards the ending that happens within the game (not going to spoil anything!). I figured I might put those types of events in the chorus of the song as the rest of the song is more focused on the now and what happened after. 

The lyrics for each page will be displayed under the picture (just so no one gets confused or anything).  

Taking over this town they should worry,

But these problems aside I think I taught you well, 

That we won't run (x3)

 Sky ships are sailing,

Looking down on these bright blue city lights,

(A/N: I'm thinking about maybe putting a pegusus knight like Cordelia maybe in one of the scenes and have her waving down to Chrom/Robin)

And we won't wait (x3),

We're here to stay (x3),

(A/N: thinking about changing this page entirely. I'm not 100% sure how I feel about it and how it flows with the rest of it)

Chorus

His crown lit the way up,

As we moved slowly,

Past the wandering eyes of the ones we left behind, 

Though far away (x3)

We're still the same (x3)

And that's all I have so far. I have the rest of it kind of figured out in my head but I just need to out it onto paper. I was going to use this for a book assignment for class but the idea got scrapped because my teacher wanted a book without a narrative or anything like that. 

But because I am really committed to this idea, I decided that I will be doing it on my own time so I don't know how long it will take me to complete this. I'm hoping that I will have time to work on it slowly within the next couple of months and then really invest some time into over the christmas holidays.

I will try to keep the blog up to date with any progress I have done (if I get time to haha)

Off to tip some scales and kick butt in Smash Bros (I got the 3ds verison of Smash Bros yesterday and it is so good!!)

-Cagsyy

Throw Back Thursday-Space Cat.

It's Thursday! Happy Thursday everyone! 

Just getting back from a drawing class and I'm exhausted. Blah. 

So getting onto our the throwback! Today we have ourselves on of my favourite paintings that I did throughout my last year in VCA. I have posted this somewhere before (most likely on my tumblr) but I have yet to talk about it or post it here. 

This beauty is my space cat. For the assignment that I made him for, we had to bring in an object to class for someone else to use to appropriate a piece of it to use in a painting. So when we went to grab someone else's object to appropriate, I grab some guys shirt with a lizard on it that looks pretty much like the lizard above with some funky shapes. So just going off of a lizard and some funky shapes, I didn't know where to go with that. 

I was so lost and I was getting frustrated so I decided to look at photos of cats on google (pretty normal right?). So as I was scrolling through photos of cats I eventually found a glorious photo of a cat in space. So with that in mind I was like "THIS IS IT" and I used it as my muse.

And there you have it. There wasn't really much though to it afterwards but everything just kind of fell into place and it was glorious. I remember when I was posting progress pictures on facebook everyone was like "are you on drugs or something?" and it's like pfffft no. But that was a lie haha. 

What kind of drug was I on you might ask? It was Art. Art is one hell of a drug (sorry not sorry). 

I also remember someone in my class too wanting to buy my painting off of me but I refuse to part with it. It's my baby and I refuse to let it go. 

I am really contemplating though making another one to go with it maybe sometime in the future or eventually reworking it a bit more and updating it. But I don't know. Too busy right now to do anything about it so whatever. 

So I hope you all enjoyed that and I'll see you guys next Thursday. Maybe even earlier then that if you're lucky!

-Cagsyy

Throw Back Time-White Mage Design.

Happy Thursday everyone!

So this weeks throw back is brought to you by a character design that I did last year of an old character of mine. I love making new characters and designing them so you might see a few more along the way. 

So once upon a time, when I was little me and my cousins would sit around either at our house or at my Aunts house and play Legend of Zelda. We would all sit around the television and take turns playing Ocarina of Time. It was such a good time. 

So me and my super artsy cousin Emma would come with character designs and pretend that they were fighting alongside Link and help him save Hyrule. Her character was named Lee and was Links little sister and my character was named Shira. From what I remember I decided that she was from a ancient line of white mages that was taken in by Impa with no memory of her past. She can also secretly do quite a bit of dark magic, and it's because of her abilities she a person of interest for Ganondorf to recruit.

This is one of the oldest drawings I could find of her that I still have.

When I started to develop characters, I honestly wasn't very good at it. Do you honestly think she looks like a white mage? Not to me..

So the more I started drawing and creating characters, the more my designs got better and better. So eventually my design skills (or lack there of) has brought me to this point with her design.

So here is her new design as of last year! I really liked how it turned out. She has a white mage sort of design with a different twist. I was looking at a lot of different designs for a white mage and fused them together and this is what I got. 

I really liked her hairstyle so I decided to keep it. Her hair is styled like that because she is hiding her one eye that has a mystic incantation on it. It is because of the incantation on her eye that she can do dark magic spells too alongside her using white magic. I didn't want to over complicate her design since I find that most of designs within Ocarina of Time aren't overly complicated. 

With the release of Hyrule Warriors and with the seeing the design of Lana, I might tweek her design a little bit. But not a crazy amount since I am still really proud of it.

So yeah. Happy Thursday!! Hope everyone is enjoying their Thursdays and stay tuned for more throw backs with me~

Bye!

-Cagsyy

Rusty As Eff.

So hows everyone on this glorious Tuesday?

I'm great thanks for asking! Jokes on me no one asked.

Anyways, today I had drawing class. Yay. And you know what we did in drawing today? LIFE DRAWING! Yay..(again!)

So for those who are aware (and those who aren't) I am a big fan of life drawing. Life drawing is like the fundamentals for anyone pursuing the arts, because it helps you to develop the understanding of the human figure.  It helps you break down the human figure into lines, shapes and tones; and what you can take from it I believe that you can apply it to any form of drawing or painting. 

I don't know.

But what I do know is that there is something about life drawing thats excites me (and no it is not the naked models...most of the models we get are a little too old for my liking). I can't really explain the feeling I get from life drawing. But it's that feeling that encourages me to keep drawing and just makes me happy. 

So yeah. We did some life drawing today and since I haven't done any real life drawing for about a year, I was super, crazy rusty. It felt a little weird trying to get into a life drawing kind of mindset. But I managed! I actually did a little better then I expected for being super out of practice.

And with that, I give you some of my drawings from todays class. Let it be known that they aren't my best BUT they are as good as they get for now! (Note: the model that we had in class was a man, just wanted to clarify).

So what we started off with were some 2 min sketches. As you can see some of the lovelies weren't complete. I always seem to end up with a lot of drawings without any feet (whats up with that?). They started to get a little better as I kept going and I felt like I was kind of getting back into my groove. After that, we moved onto 30 sec poses. That felt a little bit like a train wreck oh boy!

As much of train wreck as 30 sec poses can be, I still love them. They are more gestural and they really get you to focus on the basics. So after that, then our drawing teacher asked us to draw with our non-dominant hand. That felt like a challenge for sure but honestly it wasn't that bad. It was actually pretty good.

So after that, we started drawing with are experimental mediums that we have been playing with for that last week or so (mine were blueberries). Now this was just kind of meh but whatever. Not a huge fan of any of the drawings I did for this part of class but this one is the best one I think out of the set of three I did.

So yeah. That was today! Today was pretty awesome. Now that drawing class is long and gone, it's off to read and write a paper I really don't want to do. Anyone want to do it for me? No takers? Okay. I'll go be sad and attempt to write it.

Bye!

-Cagsyy