Update.

Hey long time no post. 

Well, unfortunately I failed trying to keep updating this blog. I goal was to update once a month and I failed!

It's a sad life. 

Trust me, I've been meaning to update you forever with something. Didn't have to be anything amazing, but life just got the better of me. Life is constantly getting the better of me and I just find it's hard to keep up. It was just one thing after another, and it was just too much. With everything that happened, I grew pretty depressed. I've always struggled with some sort of depression/anxiety, but this was different. Usually when I'm depressed it's something that passes really quick and it's to a much smaller degree. But in the past couple of months I found that my depression was much worse, where I found myself crying pretty much everyday, I would wake up from sleeping having terrible panic attacks and I had days where I just wanted to die. 

It got pretty bad.

I didn't know what to do with myself. I almost hit my breaking point the one day, I remember calling my dad and just breaking down to him on the phone. I never till that point told anyone how depressed I was, but I'm glad I did. I was on the phone with my dad for two hours just talking to him about everything. My poor dad, he had to listen to me cry for two hours! If you ever see this dad, thank you, I'm sorry and I love you so much! He really helped me at my worst and started telling me about his struggles with depression, and he really helped me through it all. I've learned to really hate bothering people with my problems but in the end I'm glad I told someone. 

I'm still not over with my depression. But you never really get 100% over it right? You just learn to get it under control. I'm  just taking it day by day! I'm so thankful for everyone that I have in my life and everyone who really helped me in my time of need. 

I love you all.

Anyways...yeah. That's part of why I haven't updated. But I'm really going to try to put more of an effort to continue to update! We'll see how long that lasts haha. But I have a bunch of new things that will probably give me enough content for a long while so that's something?

So yeah, here's the end to that rant! Onward to better and more creative things. To the supermoon! Or something like that?

-Cagsyy