Book Development! Excitement.

So I'm in the middle of developing a book for my drawing class and I'm super excited about it. Ever since I was little I always wanted to make graphic novels or just some kind of book. I love books! They are a really nice escape from reality and really play with your imagination. 

Plus that old book smell is pretty nice right?

So yeah I'm developing a book that is just basically my comments on societies beauty standards. I know so many people (myself included) that have/had issues regarding their body. And why? Because they don't fit in within societies ideas of whats beautiful?

Fuck. That. Shit. 

Societies ideas of beautiful is so messed up. I hate it. 

So in my book I talk about this and the idea of body positivity. As someone who is finally becoming more confident in my body/looks, I want other people to be love themselves and accept their body for what it is. Because everyone is beautiful. I am in the book talking more about the female body, but I think the idea still applies itself to men to. I just feel like the female body is constantly under a microscope. 

So with that here's a couple of my favourite drawings from it so far!

-Cagsyy

Update.

Hey long time no post. 

Well, unfortunately I failed trying to keep updating this blog. I goal was to update once a month and I failed!

It's a sad life. 

Trust me, I've been meaning to update you forever with something. Didn't have to be anything amazing, but life just got the better of me. Life is constantly getting the better of me and I just find it's hard to keep up. It was just one thing after another, and it was just too much. With everything that happened, I grew pretty depressed. I've always struggled with some sort of depression/anxiety, but this was different. Usually when I'm depressed it's something that passes really quick and it's to a much smaller degree. But in the past couple of months I found that my depression was much worse, where I found myself crying pretty much everyday, I would wake up from sleeping having terrible panic attacks and I had days where I just wanted to die. 

It got pretty bad.

I didn't know what to do with myself. I almost hit my breaking point the one day, I remember calling my dad and just breaking down to him on the phone. I never till that point told anyone how depressed I was, but I'm glad I did. I was on the phone with my dad for two hours just talking to him about everything. My poor dad, he had to listen to me cry for two hours! If you ever see this dad, thank you, I'm sorry and I love you so much! He really helped me at my worst and started telling me about his struggles with depression, and he really helped me through it all. I've learned to really hate bothering people with my problems but in the end I'm glad I told someone. 

I'm still not over with my depression. But you never really get 100% over it right? You just learn to get it under control. I'm  just taking it day by day! I'm so thankful for everyone that I have in my life and everyone who really helped me in my time of need. 

I love you all.

Anyways...yeah. That's part of why I haven't updated. But I'm really going to try to put more of an effort to continue to update! We'll see how long that lasts haha. But I have a bunch of new things that will probably give me enough content for a long while so that's something?

So yeah, here's the end to that rant! Onward to better and more creative things. To the supermoon! Or something like that?

-Cagsyy